Hannah's thoughts

Parties, babies and grade point averages

2008-04-27T23:28:00.005+01:00

Another busy week has passed and what a week it has been!
Last weekend we were at camp which was wonderful but brief. It was a great time but also included some serious matters and thoughts. These kids may be 14 but sometimes they are so grow up its scary.

Monday was a tired day but me and Sofia still managed to scrape up enough energy to go to Elin's student skiva (graduation dinner after party), which had TV/Film as its theme. Sofia went as one of the pink ladies and looked fab while I went as "Grynet" a awful teen-talkshow host that I hate but managed pretty well impersonating. It ended up being a fun eve and I bumped in to quite a few unexpected people, among other Julie's ex and some friends from church.

Tuesday was an even more exhausted day but good as I am I only missed one class, the excruciatingly early 08:20 english class.

Kind as they are the higher powers had blessed us with having the wednesday off, and after a weekend at camp and monday nights partying this meant well need rest. After a calm afternoon with my sister I was off to our monthly youth leader meeting at church which was good but painful bringing to light some off the stress I've been feeling lately. But after a hug or two, and a night time stroll things felt a bit better.

School on thursday went by very quickly since our philosophy class was cancelled and that religion lesson was one of the best classes this year! We have had it as a project to "experience a religion", each member of the class has chosen a group or sect to visit and then we have to present our experience. This class was the first presentations and they were soo good! They have trully experienced the places they've visited and their accounts were really interesting and personal. I can't wait to hear some more! At 15 I had to run to make my meeting with Erica, who is our parish pedagog. We had on of our great chats and afterwards I felt a lot better. How could I not, the sun was shining and it was warm enough to only wear a t-shirt! So I strolled around a bit before phoning my friend Niclas and saving him from sitting inside working! We met at Nytorget a notorious SOFO spot that I grew up with and truly love. Niclas who bad and busy as he is had only eaten breakfast grabbed a pizza while I went for ice cream from Stockholm's best ice cream bar AH's. After eating our snacks on the green hill side of Vitabergspaken we strolled on before finding a great little playground with the best toy ever. However all this talking and walking had mad us hungry again so we went on a semi short detour pass McD's only to find it smack packed with 3 bus loads of school kids from Mullsjö! (Coincidentally where our parish pedagog is from. Not a very big place.) After grabbing some fries and laughing at these funny kids we took a trip round our local video store only to decide it was too late for a movie but that we had probably had more fun in the store than we would of at home. So after about 5 hours of crazy chatting we final called it a night and I went home to sort out my outfit for friday!

Friday was a very short day I only had one class which was a natural science lad where we played around testing our senses. After school Olle, David, Sassa and I rushed to finnish the last stuff for our skiva which was latter that night! As usual things take longer than you think but I managed to get home by 17ish so we were only 5 min late. The skiva was fantastic! Fist we had a welcome drink of champagne in the entrance hall before moving on into the beautiful ball room where we ate a lovely dinner. During the dinner several people held speeches among other Rizzo! Our dear teachers also held a few speeches. Niklas started of by holding the sweetest speech ever that almost made me cry saying that he'd never forget us! He was followed by Mr Olsson who was just as sweet and although admitted he probably won't remember us all said that as compensation we may call him Håkan, but not until after graduation! Mrs. Dinnétz reminded us again of the fact that we may be dying but we do still have time left and during that time we must stray from our paths, we may get back on them again but first we must sway! After numerous rounds of Lambo and a pathetic attempt at singing Studentsången we finished our desserts and moved on to Hard Rock, where the party continued. Having sold about 200 tickets to the after party we weren't short of people as we partied far into the early morning. It was such a fabulous night, it almost feels as if someone had sprinkled pixie dust over it all, Mias present, Mr Olssons question and the sun rising as I got home our memories that I hope stay with me forever!

Saturday was as one might have expected a pretty calm day, sleeping till two, calm stroll around Söder before curling up on the sofa and watching a film.

Today was also pretty calm Dad and Caro came round Mum's at 12 and picked us up so I could drive us out to Hellasgården for a nice family lunch and short walk. Before driving home we "went passed" Nacka and dropped Emma of at her boyfriend Viktors house. When we got home it was time to mess around with part two of this entries heading. I'm glad to let you know that Caroline is pregnant and expecting to give birth to our baby sibling on the 24th of september! So today we were looking at the video of the 2nd ultrasound scan which you can watch on their blog (click here). Everyone is really excited and I can't wait till its time to start buying loads of baby stuff. Sadly as those of you that are attentive and good at maths can tell us, I will move to manchester before the baby is born which is a shame I really wish I could be there but luckily we have long breaks so I'll be home for a month at christmas where I'll have to try to catch up a bit!

After a few hours of lounging around I took the bus in to town to pop past KU before it ended which was nice. Josef had a nice devotional and on the bus there and back I got a chance to read some more of The Kite Runner that I got from Caro for my birthday. It is really good and I love his style and the tone in his writing, its so touching. Also this evening I was messing aout and decided I should finally work out my GPA (grade point average). I've been meaning to do it for some time because I need at least 17.5 to get into Manchester, and although I'm confident I'll do well this term I wanted to know what the impact wold be if I missed a little here or there. The result surprised me, I worked out that if I got a G in german, an MVG in english and music and VGs in the rest I'd still get 17.59. Which is good enough to get in, so I guess I don't have to worry too much. I still intend to try and get as good marks as possible but t least now I know I don't have to kill myself bending over backwards.

Well if I'm going to try and get good marks I better get some good sleep first,
Good night, sleep tight,
Love Hannah

The bad, the good and the restless.

2008-04-16T22:42:00.003+01:00

From fights and diagreements to fun and dreams, this has truly been one crazy week. The bad bit are best left behind while the good ones can gladly be reported.

I'm currently trying to decide what uni accomodation to go for so that I can send in my application and let Calle know what to put in his. Also in the sprit of uni I've been talking (figurativly speeking) to a girl on facebook that lives in Bejing that is also going to be in my course.

Emma who for the unknowing is my soon 18year old sister, is also starting to look at unis for next year. In contrast to me shes more of a science girl and is currently looking at studying automotive engineering. She's been looking through all my old prospectuses and today we were checking up some off them on the web. At the moment shes toying with the idea of also going to Manchester but to Manchester Metropolitain University (MMU) which is right next door to Mannchester University. They even shares some facilities, such as libraries and sports halls.

Well thats all for now, the next stop for the carusel is camp this weekend that I've been looking forward to for weeks. Its hard to describe but there is something about camp that just makes you feel like the real world is far away and just can't get to you, and that is some I truly love. I'd also say that at the moment a real break is just what I need.

I'll be back with more news shortly, till then take care of yourselves.

Doggy style

2008-04-10T12:17:00.001+01:00

Pavement by Kronobergs park,Stockholm.

World Freez Day in Stockholm

2008-04-10T01:58:00.002+01:00

Check out the Freeze done in the Stockholm centeral station.
You can see Axel in it and with a keen eye you can also spot Björn!

Uni update

2008-03-31T22:36:00.003+01:00

Hi thought I'd let you all know how its going with all my uni stuff. For those of you that don't know I applied to:

BSc Management at St.Andrews
BSc Management at Warwick
BSc Management at Manchester
BSc Management and Leisure (M&L) at Manchester
BSc Event Management and festival studies at Napier, Edinburgh

I have now recived all my replies and I got conditional offers (that I expect to reach) from all but Warwick. Which I'm really pleased with, since I was not too keen on Warwick in the first place.

So during the last month or two I'v been thinking a great deal about where I want to be and what I want to do. I started of with rulling out Napier since it has a much lower ranking score and is an old polytech which I was not to keen on.

So its been between man uni and St.A and there are of course pros and cons with both of them. St. A has a better ranking score and I like the ide of a prestigus uni with old traditions. On the other hand it is very conservative and also a lot smaller. As a contrast man uni has more undergraduates than the whole town of St.A including the uni!In the end I decided that Manchester is the best choice for me, which just ment I had to choose which course I wanted.

After sitting down and seriously looking at the content of each course I decided to go for Management and Leisure. It has the same basic core structure as pure management but instead of accounting and quantative methods (which might not exactly be my favorites) it has psychology and sociology and a general focus on leisure within the other modules.

Now that I've made up my mind I've been bissy doing research on manchester and finding other people that either already attend man uni or are starting this autum. So far I've found several people on facebook that are taking the same course as me and spoken to loads of people that are going to manchester. Last week I found out that my good friend Calle has decided to put manchester as his firm too, which is great. Now I have someone to compare notes and be generally crazy with. He is going to be studying Physics and astrophsics, so he's been trying to enlighten me :)

Well now I'd better be off to do some studying so I acctually get in! Be back sooner :)

De allt gulliga i Norrland :)

2008-03-11T00:03:00.001+01:00

När handlingar talar högre än ord
Bussen mot Öjebyn, Piteå

Två jeanskillar ~18 sitter längst bak i bussen och pratar förtroligt.
Kille 1: Men du, är det inte dags att vi flyttar ihop?
Kille 2: Va? Nej! Fan! Det kan vi väl inte göra? … Varför det?
Kille 1: Jag tror fan jag älskar dig.
Det blir tyst en liten stund.
Kille 2 (försiktigt): Oj, jag vet inte vad jag ska säga. Nu tog du mig på sängen.
Kille 1 (litet finurligt): Favorit i repris från inatt då?

Från Tjuvlyssnat.se

Home again

2008-02-07T13:00:00.000+01:00

Today is my first day back in school since our class trip to Lithuania. We left on Friday and got back on Tuesday. Lucky for me the first and second years had a sports day yesterday so I managed to fit my risk driving in before coming back to school today. Which I can tell you wasn't easy! Need less to say we didn't slep much in lithuania and stupid as I am it hasn't really been prioritised since I got back either, resulting of course in me being mega tierd. So this morning I skiped my first lesson to get some extra sleep which was bad but it sure did fell good. I could easily have stayed in my warm bed all day. In the end I forced myself to get up and go school, were I didn't have social or philosophy so after reading some social studies papers I went out for lunch with Daniel and now I'm of to religion class. SO I can't fill you in on Lithuania quite yet but I'll be back.

Not Much School lately...

2008-01-31T09:49:00.000+01:00

And less to come!

Today I over sleept since my stupid mobil keeps droping its batteri it had the wrong time and my alarm didn't go off!
So at the moo I'm home trying to start my history paper on the IRA so I can had it in today! It feels like I'v not been in school that much lately. Partialy this is due to that we've had a bunch of study or half days and at the moo I don't have any swedish lessons, but I've also been missing the odd lesson here and there which kinda sucks. I should really make more off an effort!
But as I said I'll have even less school in the coming period. Tomorrow we are going to Lithuania and won't be back till on tuesday afternoon so thats 3 days we miss and then we're off on the wednesday! So next week I only have 2 days off school and fridays are really short in themselves, and this week we had 2 1/2 days but I'm missing half of today so only 2 for me!
It's crazy.

Dad sent me and email yesterday from Vietnam so now atleast I don't have to woory about them being dead. They are having a great time ofcourse but I don't think its too much to ask for that they send a text now and then to let me know they are alive.

Well, anyhow yesterday I had another driving lesson. I passed my theory test last thursday and I've booked to do the risk driving on wednesday, so yesterday we booked my driving test for the 26th of Feb which is great! I just really hope I pass first time around because I can't be asked to spend more money on all this! Well fingers crossed hopefully I'll be fine!

Well I really must get back to my essay!
See you soon!

First Uni Offer

2008-01-29T00:07:00.000+01:00

I promised a new post and here goes.
Spoke to my sister the other day when she was in London seeing our aunt Zoe and staying with uncle Mike! She seemed to have had a great weekend in London and to, in general, be enjoying the UK a lot! While on the topic of the UK, I just got my first reply from UCAS. Manchester has offered me a conditional spot studying Management! I still think I'd prefer going to Les Roches ( a hospitality management school in Switzerland for those not following) but Manchester is my first hand choice in the UK. The offer is conditional but I think I already have the grades they are asking for! So now I don't have to worry too much, at least my back up is safe!

Today we had the day off so I went into town and got the results for my TBC test,I'm negative. I also bought some new dance clothes, which was fun. My friend Anna and I have just started dancing ballet! We had our 3rd lesson today and I'm truly enjoying it!

Tomorrow we have a half day so I'm going to finish my history essay and go driving with mum. And on friday it's off to Lithuania! Two girls in my class are organising this combined history and class trip as their project work! So on Friday 20 of us are flying to Riga and taking a buss from there to Vilnius! It's a really fun bunch of people that are going so I think it'll be great!

Now I better get off to bed! Goodnight

Mashpotato John

2008-01-22T12:38:00.001+01:00

What better way to spend a lunch break? Here we see Hanna Ericksson's famous portrait of John. Now I'm off to have social class. More on uni, and other topics later this week. See you

Pluggar exegetik på KB

2008-01-07T16:52:00.001+01:00

Sitter och forskar i gamla bibel utgåvor. Ska skriva ett arbete om teologisk tolkning. Det tar mycket tid men är, som tur är, jättespännande! Så gott som allt material på ämnet finns på Kungliga Biblioteket, vilket tyvär gör det lite svår åtkomligt. Men det gör också att när jag ska plugga får sitta i lugn och ro i stockholms coolaste bibliotek istället för i skolans dammiga datasal. Nej, nu ska jag läsa vidare. Ikväll blir det THE DARJEELING LIMITED på Victoria med mamma, får hoppas att den är lika bra som den verkar.

Kärlek

2008-01-02T19:16:00.001+01:00

Fikar med familjen innan vi skiljs för en tid.

Soon christmas time

2007-12-19T01:01:00.000+01:00

As usual it's been a long time since my last post, and as usual I intend to improve! The last couple of weeks have been extremelly bissy, but now its soon Christmas break! So the next couple of days are hopefully gonna be fun. Tomorrow it's the last leader meeting this term, and on thursday we end school! At the moment I don't have plans for thursday, oh sorry just saw that channel 5 are showing Magnus Betnérs stand up show "Ingenting är heligt"! He is one of my absolut favorite people, what a coinsidence!

On friday I have a driving lesson before working. Then after work I'm going to TGI Friday's for my 6th grade class reunion! Should be interesting, I haven't meet most of them for ages! 6th grade reunion, haha it makes me sound anchient! Well I#m working saturday too and then on sunday Anna is coming from NY!!!

She's been studying in the big apple at Columbia since September so as you may guess I can't wait too se her! I've missed her loads and it'll be great to have her here over Christmas and New Years!

I'll be getting back shortly to fill you in further on what I've been up to since my last depressing post.
Love Hannah

Hur ska jag överleva?

2007-09-23T23:32:00.000+01:00

Idag så bröt min värld ihop.
Det är inte första gången, förr så hände detta typ var tredje fjärde månad men nu var det ett tag sen och jag hade väl hoppats att jag hade växt ifrån det här med att inte klara av sitt egna liv.

Men nu så var det dags igen, och så här illa har det inte vart på flera år. Huvudvärk, trötthet, depression och den ekande ensamheten känner jag igen men nu så har jag även ont i magen och mår illa.

Det var inte tills idag jag kopplade ihop att jag inte kunnat äta utan att må illa på typ 4 dar, med att jag varit så jäkla stressad sista veckorna. På sätt och vis är det skönt att inse detta så att jag kan försöka göra nått åt det men det skrämmer mig även att på nått sätt börja inse hur långt jag låtit det gå.

Det är otroligt obehagligt att inse att man inte klarar av att handskas med sitt egna liv.

Jag får ju jämt höra att jag gör för mycket, tar på mig för mycket, och borde stressa mindre men hur faan ska jag lyckas med det? Jag vet liksom inte hur jag ska göra. Först så vill jag inte ta bort fler roliga saker snart är det bara skol arbete kvar! Sen så vet jag ju själv, även om det är läskigt att erkänna att problemet ligger mycket djupare än så.

Mitt första mål är att överleva imorgon.
Sen så ska jag försöka strukturera lite och delegera så mycket jag kan för att klara mig ur det här. Om det nu lyckas så får vi höras om steg 3.

Hur faan lyckas jag?

Here are two lovely little films!

2007-08-20T00:23:00.000+01:00

PÄRON FILMEN:

AND

FNIPP FILMEN!

I hope you love them!

Beautiful, beautiful world!

2007-08-19T23:05:00.000+01:00

Love hurts!

2007-08-19T04:23:00.000+01:00

Sometimes I miss people so much it hurts! I know that this not an uncommon phenomena but it's odd. How come our being responds to emotional loss with physical symptoms? Why does my tummy hurt when my mind is sad? Is it a "I scratch your back you scratch mine" situation does my tummy owe my mind for it been sad when my tummy hurt? Is there a medical reason to why we need to feel this pain? Or is the pain also psychological?

Anyway I wish I could see this friend asap! Hopefully already on Monday when we start school!
I'm actually looking forward to starting school, I'll probably regret even thinking so in a couple of days but I am! Working with the Student Council board is gonna be great and I'm starting loads of interesting new classes!

I'll write more soon love Hannah

Work, a late first.

2007-07-12T11:37:00.000+01:00

Some how I until this summer, if you don't count the 3 depressing Saturdays I distributed newspapers before giving up and a few evenings babysitting, managed to never have a job. But this summer I decided it was time to get my act together and get a job. So for the past 3 weeks I've been working at an addiction center. It may be seen as an odd place for a high school student to work, and may be it is. Anyhow it's been a very interesting and enjoyable experience.

For those of you that are not aware of what an addiction center is. It's a place where heroin addicts who belong to the methadone program come to receive a medicine called Methadone (which is used as a replacement for heroin) that they drink out of small plastic bottles. And alcoholics come to receive medicine such as Antabus (it makes you sick if you drink alcohol after taking it). A condition for this treatment is (of course) that they don't drink or do drugs. To prove this they must leave supervised urine samples and/or alcohol tests. The longer you are clean the less frequent the tests become. They also receive counseling and certain other medical care.

Although I did not administer any tests or distribute medication, part of my job was to sit and chat with the patients as they wait for their turn. Most of these individuals have lived extremely harsh lives on the very outskirts of society and for some of them this daily or weekly chat is vital social training on there way back into society.

Speaking to these people and reading about them in their files is so extremely interesting. Their lives have been so harsh and extreme that it is almost ungraspable.

But tomorrow is my last day so I think I might just bring muffins!

Oslo #3

2007-05-24T21:51:00.000+01:00

I've found some pics, so here goes:

This is me, Anna, Serra, Dipali, Alex and Jonathan on Aker brygga (Christian is taking the pic)

This is me tired in the sun on the grass in front of the castle watching the parade.

This is me posing on Aker brygga

HUNGRY SWEDES STEAL FOOD!!!

A fine example of a good old fashioned lompeslap! (This was our new won friend Magnus!)

A neat sign we found on a tattoo parlour.

Oslo #2

2007-05-24T21:36:00.000+01:00

People always say that you get to know people on a different level when you travel and live with them. Our trip to Norway tough us that this was very true, in more ways than we could imagine!

Here's some of the stuff we learnt:

Lompeslap
Hannah is always on top
We like rocks
Christian loves trains (and Jonathan)
Sharing all is mostly good
Don't talk about the sheets (some of us haven't quite learnt this one)
Apple pie is best served in a thermos
TIDEN GÅR
"Sugar Rush" is the wrong rush
Anyplace can feel like home if you've had enough to drink
Två säten räcker långt
Braces are dangerous

We also have some quotes:

"There's a time for fuck fuck, but now is not the time"

"De händer bara i 25% av fallen!"

"In this case that's a good thing"

17 may in Oslo!

2007-05-17T19:10:00.000+01:00

This weekend I'm in Oslo with my friends Anna and Christian to celebrate the Norwegian national day.

On yesterday at 14:30 we got on a train from the Stockholm central station to Oslo and at 21:00 we arrived. The Norwegian railway is so crap they can't go faster than 80 km/hour after the border! When we got to Oslo we meet Christians boyfriend at the buss station, he came on a buss from Gothenburg. Then we dragged our very heavy bags (more shoes than days!) to Anna's apartment which is totally lovely and very central! Since central Oslo is pretty small nowhere we've gone to has been very far. Central station to Anna's house is about like walking from Slussen to Skanstull.

Today we went and sat in the VIP area in front of the castle (Anna's mum got tickets of the Swedish ambassador) and watched the parade where all the schools in Oslo and their brass bands participate. They had some very cool "stick twirling" girls. Then we say the Russ parade. Russ is the Norwegian graduating students. They have these cool overalls that they write all over and sew loads of patches on! Then we walked round Oslo and took loads of crazy pics. Now we are getting ready to go out and barbecue.

I'll post some pics when I get home and load them over! See you soon. Love Hannah

University Fair

2007-04-16T20:39:00.000+01:00

Promised to keep you posted on my uni application etc.

Today a delegation from 10 uk universities came to visit our school as part of a 10 cities in 10 days tour they where doing. First they introduced them selves and had a 1h information lecture in our auditorium on :

why we should chose to study in the UK
costs of studying in the UK
life as a student
how to apply

Then was the actual fair bit where we could go around to different class rooms and talk to the uni reps. There was reps from:

Bristol
Bradford
Royal Holloway
City
Plymouth
Essex
Leicester
Reading
Edinburgh
Southampton
Warwick
Sheffield
Hertfordshire

So now I've spoken to all of them, collected their prospectuses and signed the "please send me info" slips. I'll get back to you on if they where any good as soon as I've read them all. They are all at least 150 pages (no very Eco friendly).

Over and out!

Back in Sweden!

2007-04-15T23:52:00.000+01:00

Back home now after quite a few hours traveling! It makes me feel very much part of "the new generation" when I realise i don't mind a bit to fly on my own but taking a train totally stresses me out!
Well its pretty late and I need to wrap some gifts so I better get going. Talk to you soon!

Off to the UK

2007-04-05T10:01:00.000+01:00

Tomorrow I'm off to the UK for a great 9 days of fun and family. As well as catching up with all the relations, I'm going to visit my friend Tillan who went to my class last year and is currently studying outside Nottingham. Should be way fun! So today and tomorrow morning I have a few things to do:

check how my phone works in the UK
make a packing list
put out all my stuff
go to mum's and collect any stuff that is missing
buy something for Tillans family (could be done in UK)
go to the bank

apply for a summer job through Landstinget
check ams.se etc. for summer jobs
call Julie
call Rizzo
sigh up for a camping trip thingy
buy a gift for Anna
plan outfit for Anna's party
remember Anna's necklace

So as you can see I've got quite a bit to do. But it should be fine I have ~5 hours today and tomorrow I don't have to leave till 13:00. Well I'd better get going, there is no time to waste!

Bad Blogger

2007-04-03T22:47:00.000+01:00

Lately I have been an exceptionally bad blogger, but hopefully (as always) that will get better. First for a quick update since last time I wrote the following has happened: I've turned 18! Which is great! On my actual birthday I went out for dinner with my family, and opened lots of cards from the family. My friend celebrated Theo, Olle and I at our joint birthday party on St. Patrick Day. It was great fun we where at my dad's place and Rizzo had baked some very impressive birthday cakes! (some pics may turn up soon)

Apart from that I've been voted onto the student council board as deputy member. Where I'll be co-responsible for information. Which is great its something I've been wanting to do for a long time.

I've also stared to look more seriously at universities, and actually found something I think I want to study. I'll try to keep you posted on what I'm thinking. At the moment I'm going for international management or international business management.

Lots of Love Hannah

Del 1 av 2 avklarad!

2007-02-18T16:40:00.000+01:00

Kom just hem från SKUK's (Svenska Kyrkans Unga Katarina) årsmöte (del 1). Det va lyckat vi avklarade alla de punkter vi tänkt och fick igenom vår proposition om att byta styrandeform. Så nu styrs vi av medlemmarna genom medlems möten istället för av en styrelse. Vi bordla som planerat punkterna Revisionsberättelse, Budget och Styrelsens ansvarsfrihet till de extrainsata årsmötet som kommer vara om cirka 5 veckor (och som alltså är del 2 :P ).

Här är de som valdes till uppdrag under mandatperioden 07/08:
Jag valdes till kontaktperson och ekonomiansvarig
Dea valdes till kontaktperson och registeravsvarig
Jag, Dea, Nina och Julia valdes till att representera SKUK på DÅM

Ja nu måste jag sjuk som jag är sova litegran.
Syns snart

The lists are back

2007-02-07T00:28:00.000+01:00

Before bed I just realized it was due time for some lists!

Ten Fun Facts about me:

I'm 18 in 27 days!
I've been in a drama group for 10 years.
I've done football, judo, riding, free diving, Isadora Duncan (a form of free styled ballet), jazz/show dance, street funk, and cheer leading.
I'm 5ft 4in tall and have size 5½ in UK shoe sizes.
I can speak about 15 words of Greek
I'm 1/4 Gotläning
I've made ice cream with liquid hydrogen (i think it was hydrogen can't quite remember)
I grew up watching F1 and know way to much about it.
I have 15 candles in my room
I'm a pieces

Ten favorites right now:

Fave drink: Brämhults apelsin juice
Fave film: The Holiday
Fave song: Paradise City
Fave colour: Red
Fave time: In bed
Fave ice cream: Mövenpicks Maple Walnuts
Fave TV show: House
Fave lesson: Social Studies
Fave top: Deep blue tennis shirt
Fave food: My chocolate cereal

Ten dreams:

Drive a F1 car
Sky dive
Stage dive
Own a Ford GT 40
Win a lifetime supply of B&J ice cream
Be knighted by the Queen
Own 3 homes
Be royal
Learn to go to bed on time
Become a billionaire

Back soon in an Internet window near you!

An new view

2007-02-06T23:16:00.000+01:00

Today has in some aspects been a hard, emotional yet interesting day.

I've been feeling a bit blue the last couple of days, just one of those periods. I've had worse and I know it will pass but I can also see that the worst is still to come which is a pain but all the same it'll pass. However this morning I snapped at Rizzo. And you may be wondering (omg i sound like Nedim) why I'm making a big deal out of this. And the truth is it really isn't, i didn't raise my voice , i didn't make a scene and we didn't stop talking.
The big deal is that I've put up this long and I didn't even really get angry, that I've increased and improved my level of patience and self control. That I've learnt to look at things in a different way. I have a different kind of peace in my heart now that I just never had before and that is very exciting.

Now it's late and I really need to sleep but I'll be back tomorrow with more news from sthlm.

Obegripligt men ändå sant

2007-02-06T02:10:00.000+01:00

Jag ber inte jag säger, LÄS:
Sweden, A Near Perfect Democracy: Nu håller du käften och lyssnar

Jag mår illa där jag sitter framför laptopen i mitt nymålade tonårsrum. I världens "modernaste" land och läser detta... Och tvingas inse vilken sorts värld det är vi... jag lever i.

Det framkallar även en vis mängd synkiskhet.
Snart 18 år och inte våldtagen än! Jippi! Men de är väl i och för sig mer tur än skicklighet. Sexuella trakasserier finns det väl inte en 11 åring som inte utsatts för, så de kan man ju nästan skita i att ens bli upprörd över längre.

Jag känner hur sorgen och uppgivenheten kryper över mig. Jag är besviken på världen för att de är så här! För att detta inte fixats innan de va min tur. För att jag nu tvingas ta itu med en jäkla skit situation.

Måste det vara så här? Vill någon ha det så här? Jag kan inte alt. vägrar gå med på att NÅGON innerst inne vill ha de så här! Varför är det då så här? Jag vill inte växa upp i den här jävla skitvärlden där så gått som varenda tjej jag känner haft eller har någon form av ätstörning. Där jag och mina polare blir offer för nån form av sjukt makt utnyttjande. Och där polis och rättsväsendet motarbetar varje försök som görs för att få stop på skiten!

Jag vill inte vara ett offer. Jag vill inte att det ska vara sant. Jag vill inte tänka på det.

Men nu är det ju det och jag kan inte glömma.

Och ännu mindre kan jag leva med mig själv om jag genom tystnad väljer att acceptera hur världen ser ut. För även om det är en jävla skitvärld så är det min jävla skitvärld och den ska faan inte få se ut så här!

Länge sen sist!

2007-02-05T02:10:00.000+01:00

Nu va det en månad och 2 dar sen jag skrev sist och det e ju näst in till pinsammt! Sen dess har ju som tur e en hel del hänt. Jag har bland annat varit på STUH 2007, redigerat klart förra årets årsmötes protokoll, bokat biljetter till england och varit på allhelgonna mässa!

För er icke upplysta så står STUH för STiftsUngdomsHelg. Det är ett mycket trevligt arangemangsom (om jag fattat rätt) är resultatet av ett sammarbetet mellan Graninge stiftsgård, SvenskaKyrkansUngaStockholmsStift och Stockholms Stift. STUH ordnas en gång om året, förraåret opereade jag knäet denna helg så detta va mitt första STUH! Det va väldigt roligt å jag/vi (katarina gänget) träffade en hel del super trevliga människor som vi förhoppningsvis kommerstöta på igen på olicka arangemang!

Sen så detta jädra årsmötes protokoll som jag tog på mig att redigera då de va total katastrof! Men som sagt så e de nu klart och jag fick efterlängtad cred av mina ledar polare. Så nu känns de mycket bättre å på torsda får jag de förhoppningsvis på skrivet!

Jag kan även glat meddela att jag komme vara bort i mitt älskade hemland över påsken för att hälsa på familjen men framförallt Tillan! För er som inte vet är detta min älskade klasskompis som för tillället är å pluggar ett år i Spalding, som e super liten by utan för Nottingham i norra england! De ska bli jätte kul å träffa henne, de va typ helt chockande när jag ringde henne för nån vecka sen å hörde hennes röst för första gången på 5 månader. Nån man ju pratade med varje dag innan hon åkte! De va helt sjukt vi började båda två bara skratta. Hon låter helt annorlunda men samtidigt precis som sig själv, sjukt läskigt!

Men nu måste jag sova så allhelgona mässa får ni höra om imorn!

Lists

2007-01-04T21:25:00.000+01:00

Lists

I've always loved them. They are just great. It's probably be the control freak part of my personality that loves them the most. The clear overview. The ticking off that gives such a great felling of achievement and satisfaction. I have some pretty crap lists in my old blog so now I'm gonna start with some good, bad, weird, odd etc. ones here. I'll start with an old favorite;

10 Things I look forward to:

Riding horses in Mariestad this weekend (hopefully)
Meeting Rizzo on Sunday
Ice skating with the gang on Monday
Turning 18 in 59 days!
Getting my drivers licence
Getting texts
Tillan coming home from the UK
Going to Lithuania this summer with the girls
My phone account to kick-in so my texts stop costing me a fortune
The day my sister stops nagging me about the computer

Back soon

Holiday Spirits

2007-01-04T16:00:00.000+01:00

Hi party people,
What better time to get back into the hang of blogging than the Xmas holidays. Its been good but a little lonely, I've missed my darling friends who have been away. On Xmas I was on Gotland with my mum and sister Emma to visit my grandparents. Then I was just home chillin' and watching SATC with my from Emma acquired cold.

New years was a weird but hilarious evening. I can tell you that the fireworks in Rissne where pretty extreme and Johns champagne cork popping was some of the best I've seen!

Now I'm messing around with the radio on my new mobile phone. A black flip Samsung not wonderful but better than my last one and it was cheep. But I should be packing 'cause we are going to Mariestad to visit my mum's boyfriends family tomorrow and she's gonna pick us up after dinner. But I hope its gonna be a fun weekend Daniels mum is really nice and hopefully we can have a go riding the horses.

Then on Sunday I'll hopefully be meeting Rizzo. I'll write more soon.

2006-12-01T01:48:00.000+01:00

Tjo ho gott folk,
Idag försov jag mig för 4 gången denna vecka! men lyckades helt magiskt göra mig klar på 20min!!! De brukar ta typ 1h 10min. Men tack vare min extrema speedighet så han jag i tid till skolan och sen flöt dagen på bra med undantag för svenskan som alltid känns som veckans längsta lektion! Efterskolan drog jag å Rizzo till Theo och det var på vägen till mina konfa elever som jag hade värsta tankestunden, men nu är jag så trött att jag håller på och somna på tangentbordet!

Hejs svejs leverpastej!

Trevlig kväll

2006-11-27T02:43:00.000+01:00

Hej ett av mina andra slående drag är min tvåspråkighet, vilket självklart innebär att denna blog hipp som happ kommer byta språk och innehålla en del svengelska uttryck "expresions" (svenska för nybörjare - hipp hipp).

I söndas var de en mycket trevlig dag. På eftermiddagen var jag ute och övningskörde med pappa vilket gick mycket bra! Jag kan nu multitaska ganska bra i bilen; köra, blinkers, kolla bakspegeln, inte korsa armarna etc. Hårt jobb men kommer lugnt vara värt det!

Om det är något jag älskar så är det bilar! Jag brukar skylla på att min pappa inte har några söner, jag och min syster är uppvuxna med F1 och fotboll på TVn och jag är helt fast. Top Gear är ett av mina älsklings program med bilen till vänster som älskling (fast den är snyggare i rött). Racing licence är ett mål och F1 vore coolast i världen att få köra, även om det bara va för en dag!

Fotbollen är favorit sporten att kolla på och självkart så är det pappas uppväxtstads stolthet som ligger närmast hjärtat. The blod of the red devils runs in my veins. Becks är klyshémässigt nog favoriten även om han övergett oss för den spanska värmen.

Efter en snabb middag så bar det av most södermalm och min första Allhelgonamässa! Det var helt underbart, träffade Sandra och Ivan utanför innan och sen satt jag och Sau uppe på balkongen. Sen bar det av till KU för en mycket trevlig och intressant diskussionskväll. För kvällen handlade de om hur Gud kan vara allmäktig och treenig på en och samma gång. Jakop och Ivan slog som vanligt rekord i smarta tankar och allmänbildning, och Dea va så där gulligt smart som bara hon kan va. Sen va de hem och sova som gällde men som vanligt blev de rätt sent framför datan!

Vi hörs snart

Welcome

2006-11-21T03:17:00.000+01:00

Hi people, welcome to my new blog. I've chosen to move my blog and start writing it here instead due to problems viewing my old one. This blog will as its prediessesure have a very varied content and lots of spelling mistakes. My dyslexia is one of my more striking features so you'll just have to get used to it.